Sometimes you just need your Momma

Today has been okay. Momma came over and hung out for a little bit. That was really nice. Sometimes you just need your Momma...

I have been too stressed to do anything lately, so I stay in bed and hide under the covers. I hate when I get like this. There is a song by Bright Eyes, called 'Nothing gets crossed out'. It is how I feel sometimes... like now.

"The future has got me worried, such awful thoughts.

My head is a carousel of pictures.The spinning never stops.

I just want someone to walk in front and I'll follow the leader.

Like when I fell under the weight of a schoolboy crush.

Started carrying her books and doing lots of drugs.

I almost forgot who I was, but came to my senses.

Now I'm tryin' to be assertive. I'm making plans.

Wanna rise to the occasion, yeah meet all of their demands.

But all I do is just lay in bed and hide under the covers.

I know I should be brave but I'm just too afraid of all this change.

And it's too hard to focus through all this doubt.

I keep making these "To Do" lists but nothing gets crossed out.

Working on the record seems pointless now.

When the world ends, who's gonna hear it?

But Im tryin' and take some comfort in written words,

yeah Tim I heard your album and it's better than good.

When you get off tour I think we should hang and black out together.

Because I've been feeling sentimental for days gone by...

all those summers singing, drinking, laughing, wasting out time.

Remember all those songs and the way we smiled in those basements made of music.

But now I've got to crawl, to get anywhere at all.

I'm not as strong as I thought.

So when I'm lost in a crowd,I hope that you'll pick me out.

Oh, how I long to be found.

The grass grew high. I laid down.

Now I wait for a hand to lift me up, help me stand.

I have been laying so low

Don't want to lay here no more.

Don't want to lay here no more.

Don't want to lay here no more.

Don't want to lay here no more.

But if everything that happens is supposed to be and it is predetermined,

can't change your destiny.

Then I guess I'll just keep moving, someday, maybe, I'll get to where I'm going."

I know that it's an emo, "I'm so sad for me" song, but it's how I feel.

Hubby and I are back to our silly stress arguments. I am going to give him a massage tonight and just make tonight about him. Give him the love he deserves. We don't have little man tonight or tomorrow, so I'm going to relish in having my husband all to me. I know that sounds selfish, I guess it IS selfish, but I don't care! I need him all to me for a few days!